I few weeks ago I couldn’t decide whether or not I should send condolences to an ex for the loss of his mother. I went back and forth on whether it was my place to or not. In the end I felt that I NEEDED to do it. I knew how this person handled things out of his control, l especially something so tragic and I felt compelled to just do it.
So I did and I’m insanely glad that I did. Its bittersweet to hear that my words of kindness and wisdom helped save a life these last couple weeks. Its so hard seeing a person you once cared about so deeply feel so low and seeing them go through the horrible things you’ve dealt with only their circumstances being worse.
I feel like I redeemed my past with myself because I prevented someone from heading down the same shitty path I went down with horrible coping mechanisms that you lose yourself to. I saved someone but in the end I feel like I saved myself as well from the regret, shame and hostility I’ve carried all these years towards my past mistakes.
Its funny how life works out.